brushing up...

on some B.F. Skinner. Borders had Science and Human Behavior on sale for $4. Can we say score? Okay... so I'm a loser special education teacher, but I feel like I should keep learning more and more about behaviors and how to shape them.

So I'm going to go sit in the sun, and read about behavior.

word.

Swine Flu...

I have all the symptoms of swine flu (minus the fever... but i hear thats not necessary)

FML.

loss...

Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rushof quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there, I did not die.

(This was the poem on my father's mass card and it really means a lot to me.)

I wish I understood then, what I know now.... I would have been so much more grateful for him.

soooo glad....

It's the weekend...

kinda.

well, it's the weekend for me!

Bring on the wedding, and the sleeping in :)

Teacher TEACHER!

Good lord. Teaching kindergarten is probably one of the hardest things I have ever done. I am so out of my element, and am so exhausted by the end of the day. I think I'm getting better as the days go on, but I just know that I am not meant to be with students this young. I'm lucky I have a co-teacher that is super bubbly and LOVES this age. Well... she can have them. I need a nap and drink after teaching them...

Meanwhile I'm getting more and more excited about the school year. I can't wait to start with the 5th graders. I think I'm going to be much more comfortable with that age level. I also am buying all sorts of cool stuff that I can use in my classroom. The teacher store is definitely a dangerous place.

The funk continues, but not as badly. I think we just need to get the 5 year anniversary out of the way before I will go back to normal... about a week. oh well.

more later-

funky...

I've noticed lately that I am drifting more and more into a funk. I don't really understand why I get this way, especially now...

Life has been really good lately. I graduated on May 9th, and found a summer job as a summer school teacher in South Berwyn District 100. The pay is good, and there really isn't much to complain about. Oh, except that they put me as the kindergarten teacher. Not so much about the little ones.... but we'll see how it goes. I also was hired by district 100 to co-teach 5th grade as the special education teacher. Really... both of these jobs are blessings, and I'm so lucky. I really can't wait to start BOTH of these... even if it means BIG changes.

But in having these life changes, I also am remembering the hard stuff. Being at home in the house more has brought back a lot of memories and has made me miss my Dad even more. I wish that he was here to see all of this. I wonder how he would react to all of the news. I just wish I could see his goofy smile when I would tell him all the new happenings. It sucks even more that it will be 5 years on June 24. I don't want to even think about it.

That's probably where the funk is coming from... I just wish it didn't have to come and kick me in the ass all the time.